During the introductory session of the first research dialogue, “J” informed us that she
was a victim of Gukurahundi and at that point could not proceed to narrate her story to the
group (due to choking with emotion). When interviewing her I expected to hear a horrific
account of what had happened to her during Gukurahundi. However, she narrated a different
incident that happened to her in the 1970s when she and a number of her school mates were
abducted by some ZPRA guerrillas and forcibly taken to join the war. There were four
soldiers, and in the group there happened to be only four girls. The soldiers raped the girls all
the way into Botswana, and this had severely traumatized “J.” Although they were taken
aside, the other students could guess what was being done to the girls, even if they could not
talk about it. In contrast, “J’s” Gukurahundi experience was comparatively mild because the
most she suffered was being locked up in the army detention barracks for two months. It
would appear then that prolonged and sustained traumatic events caused what Lopez-Corvo
(2013) calls trauma entanglement. “J’s” two major traumatic experiences had been enmeshed
into one another and, because Gukurahundi had occurred after her rape incident, she viewed
it as her source of pain and hurt, as it had elicited emotions that echoed similar emotions to
her previous experience. It is possible therefore that the fragmented nature of her traumatic
memory at this point precluded the development of a narrative, sequential account of her
experience (Kaminer, 2006, p. 485).
As with other participants, “J” also found the experience around the tree liberating.
When asked about her most significant experience during the Tree of Life workshop, she
replied:
You know, the thing that made me bold enough, the very day we learnt
about the tree, ...that tree was cut and it felt pain but the tree did not dry up,
life goes on and so I said, ‘I am a human being whatever happened, I too
will live my normal life.’ For me the thing that did it was the tree... I said,
‘Aah well I am alive, I am alright then I will move on… So it is possible to
bury your past and talk about it, and heal...’
More significantly, narrating her story in an environment that both honored and
acknowledged it, provided a definite cathartic effect for “J” and contributed significantly
towards her healing. According to her, she was the first to volunteer to narrate her story to her
group (as she had missed the workshop organized for the research group and attended a
subsequent one with other members of ZVT). During the interview it was clear that
something momentous had taken place in her life, as she was able to narrate her story without
breaking down. Her countenance, demeanor–– she appeared happier, more self-assured and
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